First Day Back

First day back. It wasn't exciting, it wasn't any more boring than usual. It just was. I just am. I really thought I would hate being back at school but I don't. Sure, I don't like getting up that early but at the same time, going gives me something to pass the time. I'm even thinking about doing my homework on time ( though I only have a couple science questions because I was bored enough over spring break to do my entire language arts project over break)

Even a couple of my online friends are bailing on me, I guess even in a virtual community some people just don't have time to sit in front go their computers all day, I guess if I wanted to hang out with those kind of people I could just play WOW. Still,an internet community is still stronger than what I feel with most people out here in the real world. As long as I have internet I think I'll be okay.

Internet friends are kind of the best thing ever. I mean, they don't judge you and if they did, you'd never know. If you're a sad pathetic mess and you want to hide it, you can. If you don't want to hide it you can talk about it to them, they'll comfort you and you can't see the pity in their eyes when you do it. If you don't feel like talking to them just then, you don't have to, you can just open up a new tab and do something else. No awkward pity filled silences where you feel like crap for not being able to talk someone who you're close with. Oh, and if you don't like hugs typing in hug between two asterisks is emotional closeness without physically touching.

Also, fanfiction writing for other people I feel is very fulfilling. You can be as lonely and sad and pathetic as you want, but you're doing it for someone else. Which feels noble. Plus if you're the one writing it because someone else had the idea and couldn't bring it to words, you're sad and thinking the same low thoughts but at least you have the skill enough to turn it into something. Still, not as good as online roleplaying.

I guess I'm going to go. Home alone again and my dinner ( ramen ) is getting cold while my Dr. Pepper is getting warm.

So, I hope everybody has a great time doing whatever it is you're doing. If you wanna talk, PM me. I'll be online repoing, and I don't check emails.