I have a boyfriend. It's not that big a deal but this is the kind of thing I thought my blog followers would like to know about. ( yes Switch, I'll tell you about him next time I see you) (yes Rily it is who you think it is........ as improbable as that was)

ALSO!!!!!!! Angels and Airwaves concert THIS COMING FRIDAY!!!!!!!! SO STOKED!!!!!!!!

See yah soon, thanks for reading.

First Day Back

First day back. It wasn't exciting, it wasn't any more boring than usual. It just was. I just am. I really thought I would hate being back at school but I don't. Sure, I don't like getting up that early but at the same time, going gives me something to pass the time. I'm even thinking about doing my homework on time ( though I only have a couple science questions because I was bored enough over spring break to do my entire language arts project over break)

Even a couple of my online friends are bailing on me, I guess even in a virtual community some people just don't have time to sit in front go their computers all day, I guess if I wanted to hang out with those kind of people I could just play WOW. Still,an internet community is still stronger than what I feel with most people out here in the real world. As long as I have internet I think I'll be okay.

Internet friends are kind of the best thing ever. I mean, they don't judge you and if they did, you'd never know. If you're a sad pathetic mess and you want to hide it, you can. If you don't want to hide it you can talk about it to them, they'll comfort you and you can't see the pity in their eyes when you do it. If you don't feel like talking to them just then, you don't have to, you can just open up a new tab and do something else. No awkward pity filled silences where you feel like crap for not being able to talk someone who you're close with. Oh, and if you don't like hugs typing in hug between two asterisks is emotional closeness without physically touching.

Also, fanfiction writing for other people I feel is very fulfilling. You can be as lonely and sad and pathetic as you want, but you're doing it for someone else. Which feels noble. Plus if you're the one writing it because someone else had the idea and couldn't bring it to words, you're sad and thinking the same low thoughts but at least you have the skill enough to turn it into something. Still, not as good as online roleplaying.

I guess I'm going to go. Home alone again and my dinner ( ramen ) is getting cold while my Dr. Pepper is getting warm.

So, I hope everybody has a great time doing whatever it is you're doing. If you wanna talk, PM me. I'll be online repoing, and I don't check emails.

Spring Break

Wow, so this spring break kind of tanked. I was so bored I developed a new hobby. Repo themed role-play. It's, different. That's really all the more I have to say about that. I got some new outfits on gaia. Yay me.

I had plans just about every day this week and all of them got canceled. So I have sat in front of my computer and gamed every day. I got a call from Maddy yesterday asking if I was up to do something fun and I thought oh god, finally I won't spend all day gaming. I said yes, I was up for anything. She came picked me up took me back to her place....... and I beat the Tom Morello battle for her on guitar hero three. Then I sat around and gamed all day because Maddy needed help beating 5 different guitar Hero games. I beat battles on GH 1-3, world tour and Rock the 80's.

So this is what my friends think of me. I'm not a fun do anything kind of person, I'm a get called up to beat levels in video games kind of person. Usually I wouldn't mind but I have been doubting myself a lot lately. I was worried I had no life and the only thing I'm good at is video games. I guess this kind of proves me right.

Whatever. I mean at least I have something right? At least I don't play D&D, oh wait, no. The only reason I don't play D&D is because all three of my campaigns do nothing but bail on me. Thanks guys.

I have people online though who need me. I realized that I care a little bit too much about my gaia account and I then realized that the reason I care is because I would rather live my life online than my life out here. It's just so much easier on gaia than what it is in real life. My friends online don't bail on me, ( Luigi aside ) and thats something. That really is something. It's so much easier to bail on people that are online and they never do. That means something to me. Even though it's sad and pathetic, it means something nonetheless.

So that's my life. And that's why I'm not posting blogs as much, these are read by my out of game friends, and they aren't the ones who need me.